The evening before the op

Soooo… sitting here using a hospital computer with 1999 Internet Explorer version is the last thing I want to do, but WIFI’s not working so I guess it’s better than nothing. I’m supposed to be in the hospital’s “common room” which isn’t that bad, if you like snooker and staring at a massive world map. Feelings: mixed, but not so much worry, just fear, although not as bad as how it normally is. I spoke to the doctor and he told me my blood type was A+ which for some reason made my mum ecstatic…perhaps she needed someone to reiterate that I am really her daughter.

I feel brave, and not so much sleepy but a little tired. I guess I can only leave everything to Allah’s hands now. I got here at about 3pm and pretty much sat here through out the day doing nothing, a part from reading 3 pages of Wuthering Heights, and looking over French Grammar which I can’t even remember now. Great, this will be my last post before surgery and everything will be fine InshAllah.

Great, so I shall be heading back to my room. InshAllah, tomorrow at this time, my curve will be corrected and I’ll be titanium 😀 Although I will be absolutely knackered.

When Times Get Hard

We’ve all had bad times in our life, times when we faced obstacles, we thought were too hard to overcome. This week has probably been one of the worst weeks in my life. I guess it was because a lost someone so close to me, who I never thought would go that easy. However, this week has also taught me a lot of things. Like, to never give up on loved ones, never take advantage of the time you have with loved ones, cherish every moment with your loved ones, and live like there is no tomorrow (well to an extent) because you are never promised tomorrow. I guess this is quite a sad entry, that I am writing today, however a lot of people need to understand that life, like mountains, has jagged parts, that we’re all inevitably going to pass by, you just have to keep going…because the view is great.

Letter from the MP

One in three girls around the world is denied an education by the daily realities of poverty, conflict and discrimination. As you may know, I strongly believe in Human Rights, especially regarding girls all over the world, as there are more girls suffering because some silly people believe that we are inferior and have no voices to speak up, and that we are oppressed, and should stay home instead of going to school, but I am strongly AGAINST this, and believe every girl is entitled to an education as it is a part of her human rights, and that we should all be doing our best to ensure we are supporting this movement because it’s the right thing to do… How would you feel if your daughter was not given the right to learn, simply because she was a girl? Girls are given off to marry strangers which increase the risk of abuse, and isolation…in some places in the world, a girl is too old if she gets married by the age of 15!

So there is this wonderful organisation called Plan- Because I am a Girl, that are helping ensure that girls in Low economically developed countries are given the right to an education, because they see potential in them. They believe that girl’s hold the power to break the cycle of poverty, with education, skills and support, girl’s would be able to make the right choices and live a normal, happy life.

Did you know that an education girl is:

• less likely to marry and to have children whilst she is still a child.
• more likely to be literate, healthy and survive into adulthood, as are her children.
• more likely to reinvest her income back into her family, community and country.

Now for the exciting news…back in December, I sent a letter supporting plan to a member of parliament, asking her if she would be interested in helping me lead this organisation and make a change in many girl’s lives, and she replied three weeks ago, saying YES! She said and I quote that she will be writing to the Secretary of State for International Development on my behalf and asking him to announce how many girls the Department for International Development plan will be supporting to complete nine years of basic education by the end of 2014. She also said this is a big priority and she will get back to me as soon as possible!!!

I was flying when I found out she replied to me…see this shows you that no matter who you are, you could be making a change, if only you do simple things, like saving money for the charity, and donating, raising awareness, or just informing other people on these things. 😀 😀 😀

#FreePalestine

 

I think by now, everyone knows that Palestine and Israel have been in War ever since 1948 when the land of Palestine was taken away from them forcefully, and unjustly. This as anyone would agree is morally wrong and unjust. But at the end of the day, the whole issue is a really big matter, that I, myself cannot resolve, but pray to God that one day, the two countries will be at peace together, for “Love is stronger than segregation and discrimination”

I strongly advise everyone to support the Palestine Children’s Relief Funds http://www.pcrf.net/ as they are doing an amazing job in helping the children of Palestine, regain their life and future, and are giving more people the chance to live, the chance to have an education and the chance to find freedom every single day. The PCRF has worked hard to provide many sick and injured Arab children in the Middle East with specialized medical care that is not available locally. The PCRF not only accomplishes this by sending teams of surgeons to treat children locally, but by also arranging cost-free treatment for them abroad.

Not many people realize this, but the fear and pain that the children and people of Palestine are enduring is terrible and is the same issue that is going on in Uganda. Be the voice for these children. I know some people may think I am crazy, for talking about resolving two issues at once, but I believe if you believe, you’ll achieve. I’m a Believer.

SO Please, help promote equality and peace, by supporting Palestine. Remember “If you can’t feed a hundred people, then feed just one”

~Mother Teresa

Live Life In Happiness

Lets face it, not all people are happy in their lives! Why? Because of factors slowing them down like bills, insecurities, and many other problems in their lives that they are constantly worrying about. I used to be living this way, obviously bills weren’t slowing me down because I’m living with my parents, however one of the major factors in my life that were slowing me down were things like school, grades, and insecurities.

If for example, I was to get a low grade, I would constantly worry about it, and ask my teacher repeatedly how I can improve it, not realizing that if I carry on worrying, I’m totally missing living in the moment and by worrying, i’m not actually making things better, but making them worse, for myself. A lot of things in my life have changed, after realizing that happiness was the way! Negativeness just went out the door for me when I started changing my thoughts and feelings on things. Surprisingly next time I got a low grade, I accepted it, and worked towards getting a better grade, and…. TADA my grades went up.

Most religions would agree that happiness starts from within. If you’re not happy with your self and if you don’t accept yourself, as you are, then you can never lead a happy life. Oscar Wilde once said, “Be yourself, everyone else it taken” and I couldn’t of agreed any more. This quote simply means, you have to accept yourself because if you spend life worrying about being the “prettiest” or being “perfect” then you will NOT find satisfaction.

So I hope from today, you change your thoughts and feelings towards yourself, and watch your life change in a blink of an eye. “Happiness is like a butterfly; the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder”

Live.Hope.Laugh

Life is all about, living, laughing and hoping for the best.

Pray to God and ask for whatever it is you want, thank God, and continue praying.

Be grateful for whatever it is you have because remember that there are people in the world with nothing compared to what you have, and just hope for the best….the future is in your hands.

Remember, whatever it is you want, you will get it, with the power of God and positiveness.

Life, is a wonderful experience….Make sure you live it to the fullest because at the end of the day, you live once! 😀

Living With Scoliosis

About four months ago, I was diagnosed with this “thing” called Scoliosis….to be honest I had no idea what it was, but all I could think about was “ahhh am I going to die” “why is this happening to me” I never actually heard of it until I was diagnosed. The story started like this….

When I was about 13 I realized that I was having terrible back pain in the right side of my back, I would complain every time, so my mum took me to the G.P, who said all it was, was growing pain and that it’ll go away in about 6 months. So I forgot about the pain, not realizing I had Scoliosis. In June 2011, I was tying my laces getting ready to go out with my mum when I realized a lump on the right side of my  back…so I called my mum and started freaking out!

My mum immediately took me to the hospital and told them what the problem was. I had an x-ray and after the x-ray was done, the doctor turned to me and said “What do you think it is” and I said “Well according to Google, it’s called Scoliosis, and it’s a curvature of the spine” The doctor looked at me and said “Well done, you’re Google diagnosis was right”

Moving on, I was becoming conscious of my back and thought it made me look weird and not right. So I began having these negative thoughts, feeling low and just hated this thing called “Scoliosis”

One day after coming home from school, my back was completely aching, the pain was excruciating and I just couldn’t take it. My mum was doing a great job in being there for me and always telling me that everything was going to be okay, but I just hated the fact that my back stuck out, and my spine wasn’t straight.

Then one day I woke up, and thought to myself “Are you serious, is this seriously going to stop you from living life and being a happy person” then on I realized, what the hell?, who cares if my spine was slightly curved, and I didn’t have the most straightest back, so what if my spine isn’t straight?????

I realized, so many people out there, have far more worse cases of scoliosis, and some people have much worse things in their life, however are still remaining calm….there are people out there who have had their life so hard but are maintaining strong and happy….so I decided, to stop the self consciousness, and stop the obsessing over my back and start living, because at the end of the day, you only live once, and I can’t let something so small and silly like Scoliosis, stop me from doing what I love,

I finally believe, that this world has amazing things waiting for me, and wonderful opportunities that are waiting for me. I’m only 15 and inchallah with the power of God, have an amazing life waiting there for me, and so do all of you…. I guess my message really is to stop letting little things get in your life and just live, at the end of the day, life is too short to worry about every little thing.
To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one’s family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one’s own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.