My spine is officially fused!


I’m exactly 16 days post scoliosis surgery!! The proper term for the operation is posterior spinal fusion. I am finally MUCH more straighter, and more expensive since I have Titanium metal in my spine. On a serious note, I am thankful, thankful to be alive and well after the surgery (although it still feels like I’ve been hit by a truck) and I feel relieved to finally have gotten it over and done with. My blog posts stopped because I’ve been feeling very down these past couple of days, especially because of the pain. Everything feels so weird and it still feels like I am in hospital squeezing my morphine pump and playing with my electronic hospital bed.My time in hospital went very well, although I cant really remember anything from the first few days, I oddly remember the first day post operation from when I was in the recovery room, to being in the high dependency unit. My day nurse was called Dorothy, I remember her being the first person there when I woke up from the operation. Her name was actually easy to remember since I kept associating it with Dorothy Perkins and Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz. I also had my high moments from calling myself a vampire to inviting a doctor over for dinner.

I cant help but accentuate how hard and demanding the role of a nurse is. We’ve all had that debate of why nurses should be paid more than footballers so this may sound a bit cliche, but realistically they are just amazing people who have gained 100% more respect from me in regards to how much effort and love they put into their job. Also, hats off to doctors, specifically spinal surgeons, I mean the precision and accuracy it must of took to open my back without doing anything wrong is crazy. But everything went well and the surgeons realigned my whole spine overnight, meaning my whole organs are now shuffling back to normal- cool huh? I’m also a few inches taller which makes me happy.

Honestly, I could go in depth of my Whole experience but WordPress would probably close my blog down because of how much I would write, so I’d just like to thank Allah, primarily for keeping me alive, and for helping me get better every single day.  I am still living the post op experience every single day, and it’s done nothing but increased my Patience, tolerance levels, killed me with pain and taught me that the body is a temple that should be looked after, specifically the spine.

If I could, I would hug my spine every single day for keeping me alive. If I could use my experience to advice other people, it would be not to take your arms and legs and face and everything for granted, and to take good care of your body. If you have eyes to read this post, consider yourself lucky, if you have hands that let you control your computer or laptop or whatever it is you’re using, consider yourself luckier. I thankfully came out of the hospital alive, walking and talking.

“Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.”

― Walter Anderson

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Living With Scoliosis


About four months ago, I was diagnosed with this “thing” called Scoliosis….to be honest I had no idea what it was, but all I could think about was “ahhh am I going to die” “why is this happening to me” I never actually heard of it until I was diagnosed. The story started like this….

When I was about 13 I realized that I was having terrible back pain in the right side of my back, I would complain every time, so my mum took me to the G.P, who said all it was, was growing pain and that it’ll go away in about 6 months. So I forgot about the pain, not realizing I had Scoliosis. In June 2011, I was tying my laces getting ready to go out with my mum when I realized a lump on the right side of my  back…so I called my mum and started freaking out!

My mum immediately took me to the hospital and told them what the problem was. I had an x-ray and after the x-ray was done, the doctor turned to me and said “What do you think it is” and I said “Well according to Google, it’s called Scoliosis, and it’s a curvature of the spine” The doctor looked at me and said “Well done, you’re Google diagnosis was right”

Moving on, I was becoming conscious of my back and thought it made me look weird and not right. So I began having these negative thoughts, feeling low and just hated this thing called “Scoliosis”

One day after coming home from school, my back was completely aching, the pain was excruciating and I just couldn’t take it. My mum was doing a great job in being there for me and always telling me that everything was going to be okay, but I just hated the fact that my back stuck out, and my spine wasn’t straight.

Then one day I woke up, and thought to myself “Are you serious, is this seriously going to stop you from living life and being a happy person” then on I realized, what the hell?, who cares if my spine was slightly curved, and I didn’t have the most straightest back, so what if my spine isn’t straight?????

I realized, so many people out there, have far more worse cases of scoliosis, and some people have much worse things in their life, however are still remaining calm….there are people out there who have had their life so hard but are maintaining strong and happy….so I decided, to stop the self consciousness, and stop the obsessing over my back and start living, because at the end of the day, you only live once, and I can’t let something so small and silly like Scoliosis, stop me from doing what I love,

I finally believe, that this world has amazing things waiting for me, and wonderful opportunities that are waiting for me. I’m only 15 and inchallah with the power of God, have an amazing life waiting there for me, and so do all of you…. I guess my message really is to stop letting little things get in your life and just live, at the end of the day, life is too short to worry about every little thing.
To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one’s family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one’s own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him.

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