My spine is officially fused!

I’m exactly 16 days post scoliosis surgery!! The proper term for the operation is posterior spinal fusion. I am finally MUCH more straighter, and more expensive since I have Titanium metal in my spine. On a serious note, I am thankful, thankful to be alive and well after the surgery (although it still feels like I’ve been hit by a truck) and I feel relieved to finally have gotten it over and done with. My blog posts stopped because I’ve been feeling very down these past couple of days, especially because of the pain. Everything feels so weird and it still feels like I am in hospital squeezing my morphine pump and playing with my electronic hospital bed.My time in hospital went very well, although I cant really remember anything from the first few days, I oddly remember the first day post operation from when I was in the recovery room, to being in the high dependency unit. My day nurse was called Dorothy, I remember her being the first person there when I woke up from the operation. Her name was actually easy to remember since I kept associating it with Dorothy Perkins and Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz. I also had my high moments from calling myself a vampire to inviting a doctor over for dinner.

I cant help but accentuate how hard and demanding the role of a nurse is. We’ve all had that debate of why nurses should be paid more than footballers so this may sound a bit cliche, but realistically they are just amazing people who have gained 100% more respect from me in regards to how much effort and love they put into their job. Also, hats off to doctors, specifically spinal surgeons, I mean the precision and accuracy it must of took to open my back without doing anything wrong is crazy. But everything went well and the surgeons realigned my whole spine overnight, meaning my whole organs are now shuffling back to normal- cool huh? I’m also a few inches taller which makes me happy.

Honestly, I could go in depth of my Whole experience but WordPress would probably close my blog down because of how much I would write, so I’d just like to thank Allah, primarily for keeping me alive, and for helping me get better every single day.  I am still living the post op experience every single day, and it’s done nothing but increased my Patience, tolerance levels, killed me with pain and taught me that the body is a temple that should be looked after, specifically the spine.

If I could, I would hug my spine every single day for keeping me alive. If I could use my experience to advice other people, it would be not to take your arms and legs and face and everything for granted, and to take good care of your body. If you have eyes to read this post, consider yourself lucky, if you have hands that let you control your computer or laptop or whatever it is you’re using, consider yourself luckier. I thankfully came out of the hospital alive, walking and talking.

“Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.”

― Walter Anderson

The evening before the op

Soooo… sitting here using a hospital computer with 1999 Internet Explorer version is the last thing I want to do, but WIFI’s not working so I guess it’s better than nothing. I’m supposed to be in the hospital’s “common room” which isn’t that bad, if you like snooker and staring at a massive world map. Feelings: mixed, but not so much worry, just fear, although not as bad as how it normally is. I spoke to the doctor and he told me my blood type was A+ which for some reason made my mum ecstatic…perhaps she needed someone to reiterate that I am really her daughter.

I feel brave, and not so much sleepy but a little tired. I guess I can only leave everything to Allah’s hands now. I got here at about 3pm and pretty much sat here through out the day doing nothing, a part from reading 3 pages of Wuthering Heights, and looking over French Grammar which I can’t even remember now. Great, this will be my last post before surgery and everything will be fine InshAllah.

Great, so I shall be heading back to my room. InshAllah, tomorrow at this time, my curve will be corrected and I’ll be titanium 😀 Although I will be absolutely knackered.

Summer, Family, Life

Summer is finally coming to end, I haven’t written for quite a while so i’ll post the five highlights of my summer:

  1. Being able to spend summer in Morocco itself, is absolutely great, I’m so happy I got the chance, once again to spend a month in my beloved country, with family and friends.
  2. Being able to fast the month of Ramadan in Morocco with my family was probably one of my biggest highlights of summer. The fact that I got to break my fast with beloved ones was very special.
  3. I got to spend Eid here for the second year. Usually we spend Eid in London where I spend the day going out with my two brothers, mum and dad, which is great, but the fact that this year and last year I got to spend it in Kenitra, Morocco with my extended family, including grandparents and cousins is great.
  4. After Eid was over we went on a 5 day trip to Bouznika which is near Casablanca. It was such a lovely trip, where we were joined by family and had a blast.
  5. Finally the most biggest highlight this summer for me, was to receive my GCSE grades in Morocco because they were very good, and I got to share my happiness with the rest of the family.

We have to remember that a lot of people in the world live alone, whether in a care home without family, or without a home at all, and all alone in the streets. If YOU, yes YOU reading this have a Mum, Dad, or someone you can call family being part of your life, then you should thank God, be blessed, be thankful and most of all BE HAPPY!Image


Life as we should know it

Life as we should know it


Quote #3

“I had no idea that being your authentic self could make me as rich as I’ve become. If I had, I’d have done it a lot earlier.”

Oprah Winfrey



A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life- Allen James

When Times Get Hard


We’ve all had bad times in our life, times when we faced obstacles, we thought were too hard to overcome. This week has probably been one of the worst weeks in my life. I guess it was because a lost someone so close to me, who I never thought would go that easy. However, this week has also taught me a lot of things. Like, to never give up on loved ones, never take advantage of the time you have with loved ones, cherish every moment with your loved ones, and live like there is no tomorrow (well to an extent) because you are never promised tomorrow. I guess this is quite a sad entry, that I am writing today, however a lot of people need to understand that life, like mountains, has jagged parts, that we’re all inevitably going to pass by, you just have to keep going…because the view is great.

Breathtaking Photography

Kirsty Mitchell’s late mother Maureen was an English teacher who inspired generations of children with imaginative stories and plays. Following Maureen’s death from a brain tumour in 2008, Kirsty channelled her grief into her passion for photography. She retreated herself behind the camera and expressed her feelings of sadness and loneliness, through photography.

Today, I share with you, some of the most beautiful pictures I’ve ever seen. These breathtaking work of arts, have been inspired by “Alice in Wonderland” and ethereal fantasy world. Here I take you through her journey…

Purple droplet

Purple droplet


f Escapism








Floral Frost

Floral Frost

Exam Stress tips

Soo, I’ve not been posting a lot lately, due to the fact that my brain is overflowing with revision, and exam apprehension!!! I’ve put a few tips together, for how to control and deal with your exam stress and focus on the positive side… enjoy!

1) Never say can’t! You CAN! 😀

2) Clear your mind- Stress is an instinctive response to fear. Learn to deal with it instead of fight it.:D

3) Listen to classical music when studying- piano based music calms me down and prepares me for the revision. 😀

4) Try not to worry to much- yes you may want to succeed in your exams and not fail, but remember that it’s not the end of the world, and you shouldn’t spend all your time focusing on the exams. Go out! Have some fun. 😀

5) Get motivated- personally, I am so lazy to study, the only reason I do is because I’ve got a A3 sized note stuck on my wall, saying “Think of the day you open your results” this automatically motivates me to do my work, as I want to be crying happy tears on the day of my results, and I am sure you would want to aswell 😀

6) Take breaks regularly- after about 1 hour of revision, take a 10 minute break and just do something which doesn’t involve thinking a lot, to try and get your brain to calm down. 😀

7) If anxiety attacks you in the exam and you can’t fight it off easily, practice the following in advance 😀

and use it in the exam: 😀
1. Stop.
2. Feel both feet firmly on the ground.
3. Close your eyes if you like.
4. Relax shoulders and arms, jaw and cheeks.
5. Count a few deep breaths out.
6. Calm for one minute.
7. Think of your name, write it down and then slowly return to the task.

And finally, relax,sleep well and GOOD LUCK! To everyone doing their exams out there, we can all do it, if we believe, we can achieve baby 😀 Stay happy and remember if you want to achieve it, revise hahaha 😀 😀

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